A Couple of Questions

Dr. Phil’s Workbook Questionnaire

                Wanna get to know yourself? Fill these questions out in your own journal! These answers are from 5-7 years ago but they are mostly relevant anyway. 

1. What do you value most in your life? List three things in order of importance to you.

2. Family and friends

3. Doing the right thing

4. My writing

1. What are your expectations and beliefs about how life does and should work?

I believe life should be fair, although some acts of kindness are rewarded. I believe in miracles, not coincidences. I believe people should set aside differences. I expect life will be hard. Life is hard for most people but the fact is some have it harder than others, which brings us back to the fact that life isn’t fair.

1. What resistances or predispositions- fear, biases, prejudices- do you have? Identify five specifics.

2. Fear of commitment: in my world commitment means getting hurt. Hurting someone or being hurt yourself. I think hurting someone is so much worse than being hurt. I can take the pain but I can’t take the guilt. Guilt is something I can’t get over.

3. People from my past showing up.

4. My boobs looking small

1. What positions or approaches or philosophies are you most likely to reject or accept? Choose two you would reject. Choose two you would accept.

Accept: capitalism, unorganized religion/ spiritualism

Reject: communism, anti cop rhetoric

1. What do you need to hear from a person to be assured that this person is “okay” and to be trusted?

See this is a hard question because I trust and trust and I trust and I end up hurt. I don’t know how to tell if a person is okay. I tell my secrets to someone then they end up all over school (or work)

1. How do you feel about yourself (physically, intellectually, spiritually, vocationally, socially).

Physically I am trying to lose weight. I won’t share my weight because I am embarrassed. The stretch marks on my breasts, hips and ass make me very sad because once upon a time I was undeniably fit. Now no one could ever truthfully call me that. Also I have this thing when I don’t think my boobs are big enough. But I’m learning more perspective about that. Intellectually, I’m actually very very smart. Not really in math (maybe because I don’t care) but in most other areas. Spiritually  I believe in God. I believe there is no way we can truly know everything or even anything about God. Somedays I believe there are multiple versions of God. Buy mostly I believe in traditional Christianity. Jobwise, the fact that I can’t hold a job used to really worry me. Last night (after I threw a plate of broccoli across the room) Mom snuggled me and asked me why I thought the future was so scary and I explained I didn’t know if I’d be able to hold a job. And Mom divulged that we were secure enough that I wouldn’t need to if I couldn’t, medically and psychologically. And that’s such a relief. Socially I have so many friends, mostly from poetry. And of course my best friend is my boyfriend Justin. 

1. What do you want most in your life?

I want people to remember me as a kind, good, person. I want to be mindful, in the moment. I want to have more fun and worry less. And I want my writing read and preserved. And I want to be remembered as a fighter.