Things I'm Glad I Did vs. Things I Wish I Didn't Do Final

                   2023 Things I’m Glad I Did: Made it to my cousins wedding. In summer of 2023, the wedding of one of my cousins took place a week or two after I was released from the hospital (when I say hospital  I usually mean mental institution). I was able to go celebrate with my family and friends at a beautiful place called the Lilac  Inn. Even better  Justin was able to go  with me.

                     2023 Things I Wish I Hadn’t Done: I wish I hadn’t signed the hospital papers committing me as an involuntary patient (does that even make sense?). They told me I wouldn’t be able to get a bed anywhere unless I signed a note stating I was involuntary and I was so scared and that’’s what I did. That earned me a week of hell in a dirty, unhealthy holding pen.

        2024 Things I’m Glad I’ve Done: Started a book club. My whole life I’ve wanted to be a member of a book club. So last year I decided “Screw the waiting, I’ll start my own” I went for a mixture of friends I really liked plus friends who also liked reading and actually would read the books. Plus friends that would bring snacks (just kidding. Well, no not really). We just celebrated our one year anniversary and have read over twelve books (sometimes we do two a month). From Stephen King to Octavia Butler, from memoirs to fantasy, we like variety and we make sure everyone gets input on what we read. Then we discuss it while munching on chips. 

Hindsight bias is such an interesting concept. When I look back at the past year and a half I can’t think of anything I would change. I mean I’m sure if I inspected every single day I would find stuff. But my life is so full of good things right now,  good relationships and good activities that I wouldn’t want to make any changes that would risk altering it. It’s not a perfect life by any means. My OCD still hounds me and I encounter manic and depressive episodes plus medication side effects. But we all have our crosses to bear. I’m just glad I know what mine are so I can face them head on.