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Sometimes it feels like my body is betraying me. Now that it is clearly spring, I spend more time outside usually writing or knitting but I also like to shoot hoops (definitely not for hours like I used to do). Today I played Taps with my dad. Taps is a game that involves shooting but not running which I definitely am not in shape for. It looks like I’m not really up for just shooting either. I got shin splints just from standing there and pain shooting through my feet. I barely made it through the games before I crawled onto the grass and lay there while the pain radiated from my toes to my knees. It’s probably because I’m so heavy that it is hard to support my body. I want to be healthy and exercise but I wish it wasn’t so painful. 

They suspect the reason I’ve been so sick is because I have a bacterial overgrowth in my small intestine. Apparently this isn’t all that uncommon with people who have Crohn’s disease. So we’ll see if the medication (more medication!) clears it up. After that we are looking into iron transfusions for the anemia and I’m desperately hoping that will help me with my energy.

I have officially given up energy drinks. No more Monster or Red Bull. I even told my mom that I used to drink Monster. I knew if I did this then I could give it up for good. Monster isn’t good for someone with bipolar disorder. An overdose of caffeine is very bad for someone with bipolar disorder because it could start a  manic episode. I want to to take better care of myself. I haven’t had a manic episode in a while and I’m not looking for one. Plus it’ll save calories.

I started work at the hospital where I’m volunteering to read to patients. I decided I might offer to read my poetry to them (the funny ones). I’ve been writing more poetry this year. I’m thinking of putting a new book out next year. The biggest hits of 2025.