Happiness 100% C Part 2

                                                                           Courage

                                                   When confronted with fear,

                                                      Try to find some courage

Write down the changes you have noticed: I used to be afflicted by two disorders: OCD and borderline personality disorder. I went to  intensive therapy, underwent DBT (dialectical behavioral therapy), and CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) and years later have shed my BPD and have done well with my OCD. I am  still struggling with bipolar 1 but I’m getting better there too. 

                                                                     Creativity

What sort of creativity are you going to try?

Artistic creativity:Music, painting, sculpture, writing, collaging

Theatrical creativity:Theater, improvisation, mime, clown, choreography

Sexual creativity:

Surprises, games, make believe

Other:Knitting

Describe your next creative project: I’m working on a shaw/ bandana knitting project. It’s made of two yarns (light blue and light pink, both sparkly) that I got at a yarn festival.

                                                                     Cycle

What does the idea of cycles in our lives mean to you? Right now my year is dictated by the cycles of my mental illnesses. For example, every summer I become extremely manic, at one point needing to be hospitalized. Around Christmas my OCD goes nuts to the point I count down the days till the holiday is over.

                                                                  Personal Notes

3/19/2026: My health is perplexing my family, my doctors and me. I am so fatigued I sleep till one then I feel like I’ve been shot with a tranquilizer. My shoulder/ arm is really bothering me. My doctor thought it was dislocated but the x-ray came back clean. I  have an upset stomach several times a day and often feel faint. Both my psychiatrist and my therapist want to run a battery of tests, change my meds etc. Both want a second opinion even if that means going back into the hospital for an extended stay. It’s alot. I feel I have to process alot including the fact I might go back to the hospital. Oddly I’m not unhappy. I have alot in my life that is making me happy. Even hospitals aren’t so bad if you get the right one. I have a good team behind me.