Insatiable

I never imagined I would be in this position. The position of desperately needing to lose weight but being hungry all the time. My stomach literally gnaws on itself like I  haven’t eaten in days when I just finished a meal. I binge when I can and try to avoid mirrors. I lost 30 pounds on Weight Watchers, quit, and gained it all back. It’s hard because all my friends want to go out to eat. And I join them and consume half the menu. I know it’s the meds. I never was this ravenous before. I feel out of control. Sometimes I eat to the point I make myself sick. I feel like I’m drowning. Even alcohol never held such a spell over me. I can’t stop.