Love/Hate

When I was in middle school I kept a list of things I “loved”. Today I look back on them. Some of them are really obvious, some others I have no idea why they are even on the list. Here are the “loves” I recorded from ages 10-13.

Loves:

1. Danny (my first hardcore crush. He grew up to be a firefighter. I am so proud)

2. Vacations

3. Discovery Girls

4. Getting presents

5. The country

6. Bookstores

7. Libraries

8. Thick permanent markers

9. Cinnquains (I was an educated child)

10. Making lists (Duh)

11. Dreams with a meaning

12. Phones (at the time I wrote this I was ten and would not have a cell phone for another three years)

13. Chinese food

14. Holiday

15. Clothes shopping for tops with just Mom

16. Clocks (for a while I had a wobble clock named Bob)

17. Getting things right

18. Letters

19. Parties

20. Doing things with friends

21. Clubs

22. Hary Potter movies

23. Flyers (this game we all played at recess)

24. Impressing Danny (although I sincerely doubted that ever happened_

25. Ice cream at school

26. Thunderstorms

27. Pool parties

28. Keepaway

29. Doctors appointments (I’m not sure why this was ever on the list)

30. Shakespeare

31. HIgh School Musical

32. —-- mother (she was really nice)

33. My birthday party

34. My elementary school graduation

35. Yearbooks

36. When my cousin visits

37. Agatha Christie

38. Breezes (the cabin we stayed on vacation)

39. Tetherball

40. Hope Harcourt (my character from Anything Goes, the school play)

41. My Christmas presents

42. Perry Mason

43. Wii

44. Bubble baths

45. My special place (I don’t remember having one…..)

46. Cape Cod

47. Tennis

48. Disney Channel

49. Celebrity magazines

50. Girls Life.com

51. N (a computer game)

52. Cathay Hopkins books

53. Our Adirondacks vacations

54. Acting

55. Sarah Brown (the lead role in the school play)

56. Basketball

Of course I was just as passionate in my dislike of stuff. Here are the things I hate (if they are underlined it means they were later removed from the list)

1. Homework

2. Cheese (for the first half of my life I had a very strong….shall we say, aversion to it)

3. The city

4. Being fat (Note: 1) I was not fat 2) I was TEN)

5. Piano practice

6. Curses

7. Snoops

8. Spiders

9. Black pants (I’m not sure why that’s on there)

10. Fraction demonstrations (my demonstration was the most popular one)

11. Getting in trouble

12. My brother

13. Waiting (I still get edgy about waiting)

14. Missing people or things

15. Buying shoes

16. My brother

17. When other kids parents get  mad

18. Drunkeness

19. Lectures

20. Fitness tests

21. My brother

22. Smoking

23. Acting cool

24. Hurting people

25. My bra straps showing

26. Bathing suits decisions

27. Jump roping

28. My brother

29. My brother

30. Blabbermouths

31. Sweating

32. Crazy people (ironic huh?)

33. Makeup

34. Not knowing what to say in front of Danny

35. Changing in front of other girls

36. Endings

37. Feeling weird (my mental disorders were just kicking in)

38. My best friends secret language (which they didn’t tell me)

39. Secrets

40. When my friends are busy

41. Bad grades

42. ELA tests (even though I always performed well on them)

43. Disappointments

44. Cell phone obsessions

45. The spring dance

46. All my friends (they started giving me the cold shoulder around the same time my grandma died)

47. The hospital (I spent alot of time there when my grandma was sick)

48. Not being friends with —- —--

49. Popular girls

50. Yeast infections

51. Being alone

If I were to write a love list today it would go something like:

1. My parents and doctors

2. My boyfriend and best friends

3. The picture my brother sent me from Spain

4. My remaining cat, Scout

5. My boyfriends pets, Peanut and Benji

6. Tylenol

If I were to write a hate list today it would go like

1. Waiting

2. Insurance companies

3. Beurocracies

4. Feeling alone even though so many people love you