Mid Winter, Mid 20s Rant

I’ve been having a rough few days. Some of it could be hormones, some of it could be adjusting to new med doses, some of it could a delayed mid-20’s crisis. Here’s the thing: I’m a writer. And sometimes I feel like that is all I am. When I’m not writing I’m worried I should be writing or I’m burned out from writing. I push myself very hard to work on multiple projects at the same time but sometimes I don’t want to do that! But the worst part is that I don’t know what to do instead. I force myself to finish every book I start so that isn’t very fun either and never gets done. I actually do enjoy going to the gym but within a sane amount of time (like I won’t spend all day there). I have never felt like this in my life before. I have always engaged in projects, writing or otherwise, to distract myself and keep myself happy, from the time I was a kid. I don’t know who I am right now and I’m feeling scared (panic attack level scared).My mom says everybody goes through cycles like this. It feels like an encyclopedia is on my chest.  No, an elephant. I want my life to be all it can be. I feel like I’m letting myself down.