Time Capsule June 3-13

When I was in middle school, I got a Q and A a day journal. The journal asks you a question and every year you answer it. I got the journal when I was sixteen but it hasn’t been filled out because, despite being a writer, I’m not good with that. But I have decided to finish filling out this journal. Then we can see the stark contrast between then and now. 

June 3rd Question: Who do you miss the most?

2013 Answer: Days when my OCD wasn’t constantly hounding me. And Poppy. The old Poppy. And Grandma. I want them alive in perfect.

(My grandparents died several years apart. Poppy died a month before this entry. He had Alhziemer’s).

2014 Answer: Matt. I wish he hadn’t left the youth group. Other than that Poppy and Grandma. I wish they were here especially later this week to see me go to prom as a young lady.

June 4th Question: Today you wore____

2013 Answer: My school uniform- blue polo, light blue knit skirt, white socks and patent leather shoes.

2014 Answer: My school uniform- white polo, the rest is the same as before. I also wore blue shorts and a black v-neck and fishnet gloves to hang out with Joe and Seth.

June 5th Question: What was the last fruit you ate?2013 Answer: Probably a tomato or a strawberry

2014; Raspberries (probably) or yogurt

June 6th Question: Which family member are you closest to:2013: Oh this is such a tough question. I’m close to Mom and Dad but in different ways. I’m also close with several of my cousins.  (I chose not to name names)

2014: Probably Mary-Kate. I feel like she knows me the most and she understands me. I trust her and I’m really glad she’s starting to trust me too.

June 7th Question

What do you feel grateful for today?2013: My friends (mostly the youth group ones) and Roger and some of my school friends like Ally and that I am pretty

(well at least I was confident!)

2014: My amazing, wonderful, perfect boyfriend and all the friends I’ve made recently. For an amazing prom and even more amazing upcoming summer

June 8th Question: What makes you miserable

June 2013 Answer: My OCD. My past mistakes. Feeling guilty, unhappy, lonely, when my plans are altered last minute. When people are mad at me and even worse, when they have a right to be mad.

June 2014: When  people are mad at me. My OCD. When plans don’t work out or I’m not invited to a party or when I feel left out or when I think people are ignoring me

June 9th Question: What makes a good friend?2013: Loyal, sweet, fun, funny, dependable, available, exciting, bubbling, trusting, honest and (although this stuff isn’t as important) pretty, social and fun

2014: Honest, loyal, fun, sweet, sensitive, trustworthy, social, funny, a good listener, dependable (and lesbian. So they don’t steal my boyfrIends. JK)

June 10th Question: How many cups of coffee did you drink today?

2013 Answer: One. Usually I just have one cup of coffee in the morning to keep me awake during my classes. 

2014 Answer: One (still drinking that one cup to kickstart my day). 

June 11th Question: What is your favorite thing to do on a Friday night?

2013 Answer: Go to youth group. I get invited to parties and stuff but its my favorite way to start off the weekend- with my best friends in one of my favorite. I get happy just thinking about it.

2014 Answer: For the past three years my answer would have been youth group but Matt’s gone and the youth group’s pretty much dead. So I like to party and hangout with Joe and his friends.

June 12th Question: Is something in your way? Can you move it?

2013: My OCD. And no I can’t move it. Well mentally I can try. But more often than not my efforts are futile which is why I prefer not to think about it.

2014: Actually nothing is really in my way right now. My OCD gets bad now and then but for the most part life is going my way.

June 13th Question: Something that worried me today:

2013 Answer: The whole thing with —--- becoming friends with — and — And what about if —-- and I were never really friends to begin with?

(Ooooo  I do not miss high school drama)

2014 Answer: I actually didn’t do much worrying today. I haven’t been worrying that much lately but I guess finals (I have four upcoming ones)

2025 Answer: Actually to protect privacy I’m keeping this one to myself. I am allowed to do that (right?)