My Most Memorable Childhood Friend

My best friend (and maybe the person that knew me deepest besides my cousin up until college) Alicia Calloway (name changed). At first we didn’t like each other much. In fourth grade we were in the same friend group but just like what happened with other later friends she was constantly putting me down, calling me a crybaby and making me feel left out with stunts like silent treatment. I think she was jealous because I was new to the friend group. Somewhere along the way we became good friends.

 Middle school was hard on me and Alicia understood that.  Alicia could crack me up like nobody else could. The person who has made me laugh the most on this planet is either my brother or Alicia. We would stay awake swapping secrets. But Alicia didn’t understand alot like my OCD (which is the one secret I never told her because I didn’t think she’d understand). Really, though, I never gave her a chance to understand. When my Grandma got sick, things between us got worse. My other friend was really hard on both of us but from my perspective she was going after Alicia for sticking by me. I told Alicia I was leaving the friend group and I left Alicia to fend for herself but I missed her so badly. Losing my Grandma and Alicia, two people I loved the most was so hard. Thank God Alicia got me through puberty. I got my period (first) so I gave Alicia a blow by blow. I could tell her literally anything including intimate details. 

One time at a basketball practice after Alicia and I had stopped being friends she approach me in the bathroom and told she had gotten her period and for about twenty minutes we just talked like we were friends again. It was the strangest thing. And then we weren’t again. But there was never animosity between each other. She  still lives around the block from me. 

Sometimes I want to Facebook Message her. I don’t know if it’s appropriate given the history. Alicia was working at the local eye doctor last time I saw her (pun not intended) but I didn’t recognize her. She still looks great. And just to be clear this is a friendship. I have never had amorous feelings toward Alicia. People assume that just because you are bisexual means you like everybody of both sexes. I am just grateful I had her in my life. Maybe she’ll make me laugh one more time.